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Taking a Psychotic Break

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In group therapy I talked about the pressure I feel as the Tuesday Hater at the Weblog and how it's only intensified now that Scott McLemee will be linking to me. Though my fellow group members were unfamiliar with the Weblog, and academic blogging in general, they were nonetheless supportive. They told me to take the pressure off of myself - to trust that the Weblog is nurturing and understanding of the challenges that I face; any hatred I put forth will be received with open arms. Ten group members can't be wrong. I trust that you will treat my humble effort with the respect and love it deserves.

I hate that I now walk with a shuffle and can't stop sticking my tongue out.

I hate that my initial psych evaluation lasted for 15 minutes.

I hate that, despite my assertion that I was a gargoyle, my taste for metal shards, and my spells of encopresis, I was approved for only one day in the hospital.

I hate that the only treatments my insurance will pay for are Haldol and ECT.

I hate that the psychiatrist thought that the Weblog was one of my delusions.

I hate that blog war PTSD is not a recognized mental health diagnosis and is not treated by VA hospitals.

I hate that I started thrashing and screaming, "Do you know who I am? I'm the Tuesday Hater!" when I realized I was being committed to the hospital.


The Comments

I hate that more people in therapy groups do not know of the Weblog, or the Tuesday hate. I hate when I'm filled with rage on a Sunday and it turns into mild dislike by Tuesday. I hate that the Bears sucked huge donkey balls all over the football field on Sunday. I hate that the Colts didn't do so hot themselves, but they obviously "crushed the Bears". I hate my undying devotion to the NFC because they suck and only lead to more hatred and tears.
Richard McElroy | Homepage | 02.06.07 - 10:29 am | #

I hate that I was high strung about hate this am and may have potentially annoyed someone whose mental state is exceedingly fragile.

I hate weather below 20 degrees.

I hate that I was high strung about hate when, actually, now hate is expected, I really don't have all that much hatred.

I hate getting sucked in to pointless exchanges.

I hate that exchanges can be pointless.

I hate my residual Habermasochism.
Jodi | Homepage | 02.06.07 - 10:41 am | #

I think that Claire is going through a chirality transformation.
John Emerson | Homepage | 02.06.07 - 10:54 am | #

I hate, Claire, to even mention this.

But as you are having such mental problems please allow me to offer you a special one time only discount on St. John's Wort flavored Smegminon cheese.
Kreszentia Cheeseman | 02.06.07 - 11:04 am | #

I hate how fucking cold it is. I hate that last night I still felt chilled five hours after getting home.
Adam Kotsko | Homepage | 02.06.07 - 11:26 am | #

I hate that the cold weather I endure when walking to work & the cold draft that I endure while working has chaffed my hands to the point of occasional bleeding.

I hate that lotion mixed with blood is a little gross.
Brad | 02.06.07 - 11:38 am | #

I hate squirrells. I hate that they got into the attic because of the cold, burrowed into the insulation and scratched on the ceiling dry-wall all night and that at three in the morning I had to break out my new forehead flashlight (which was suppose to be a night fishing event) and trusty Red Rider in order to lodge a b.b. in the heart, skull, or eyeball of a dirty, careless, selfish, squirrell.
Gabe | 02.06.07 - 12:04 pm | #

I hate it when people don't use their turn signals.
ben wolfson | Homepage | 02.06.07 - 12:53 pm | #

Pre-Friday -- I have a bad habit of choosing whether or not to use my signals on a case-by-case basis, that is, based on whether there is someone close enough behind me that they will care. I got into an accident once because of this habit.
Adam Kotsko | Homepage | 02.06.07 - 12:55 pm | #

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Comments

What a wonderful way to really understand psychotics.As a person formerly known for repressing my hate I know that having a place to let it out is completely nessecary for healing. Good job on allowing people to express there hate without the fear of being abandoned.

Keep up the logical outcomes.

David Elliott

Posted by: David Elliott | February 13, 2007 06:51 PM

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